Are You a Self-Starter?
When I was nine I was fascinated with my Dad's woodworking shop. It was filled with all sorts of creations in various stages of completion. I loved listening to my father explain how things worked and seeing him be inspired by it all. He sent me off to college with a hand-made upholstered chair so I'd always have a place to rest and be cuddled. He was my role model for the joys of starting, building, creating. What he didn't do was finish things.
"The creative habit is like a drug. The particular obsession changes, but the excitement, the thrill of your creation, lasts."Henry Moore
The creative process is a wonderful thing. It's joyous and intoxicating for me. Anyone who knows me, knows I"m full of it-creativity and ideas-that is. I love starting on a new idea, feeling the rush of adrenaline that accompanies the thought of all those possibilities. Yummy!
Yet, creativity has a dark side.
Are you a Never-Finisher?
Just like my dad I'm a great self-starter, creative force and also a 'never-finisher'. That means I sometimes have so many good ideas going at once that I can't finish just one. Sounds good, right? Sometimes, it's not. Sometimes a bounty of ideas is really a way of delaying action or distracting oneself away from fear of success.
Good ideas abound, but before you take up the next one ask yourself: Why am I pursuing this? Is the timing good? Am I diluting the energies I could be spending to complete a current project? Am I avoiding what I perceive as a weakness in my or a challenge by starting something new?
Tough questions to answer. I know I answer them myself. Why? Because I can't complete my greatest creation- my life- without discovering myself.
What does this mean to you? Think about whether you're a 'self-starter/never-finisher' and why.
Inquire of yourself whether you want to change and how to do it. It might be that the only thing keeping you from having the mediation practice of your dreams is you.
Try. Fail. Learn. Grow!